Hey. Today seems like a good day to blog. I'm indeed procrastinating from the heaps of my debate rebuttals that I should be preparing, sigh. I made my own dinner today and I mopped the whole living room, study hall and the kitchen. Yay score one for growing up. Which again makes me sigh. Oh no, don't get me wrong it isn't the chores that I'm sighing for, it's the growing up part. Doesn't it suck that everyday we wake up and we're 1 day older? We're being closer to growing up every single day, but no I don't want to grow up. No, I want to stay a kid, I want to be pampered, I want to go to school, I want to live with my parents. No, I don't want to be an adult, I don't want to live on my own, I don't want to face college/university, I don't want to find my own food, I don't want to leave the sanity of home. No, I don't want to grow up.

It's just about months, that I'll be done with my spm and my results will be out. I'll be going to college in months, oh no. please i don't want to. i wanna be a kid again. i want to be free, i want to pampered. i want to beg daddy to iron my clothes when i'm lazy. i want mum to force me to eat my vitamins and supplements. i want mum to remind me to wash my shoes. i want daddy to pick me up from school. i want to watch sunday movies with mum and dad. oh my, why does childhood seem so fun

Yes, I do realize it. I am growing up, no matter I like it or not. I'll go to college, meet new people, make new friends, fall in and out of love, break hearts, get heart broken, learn to live, to be independent, to be brave, to face life's challenges.

Oh and yes, I've decided to take up medicine in the future. I was torn between law and medicine, actually. And i had a hard time deciding whether I should be wearing a black suit or a white coat? to protect the law, or to protect the people? and yes finally i decided yes i want to be a doctor. No matter the fame and money, i want to help people. i want people to feel better. i want families to trust doctors and sleep away knowing that i will do all out to help their loved ones. i want to help. i want faith in humanity and the only way to get it, is to be a doctor.

Speaking of the future, I'll actually be going to the debate state level competition in 5 days. Wish us luck people.

Which again reminds me, i should be doing my rebuttals.

Bye loves.